nothing tastes better than slim

i’m on day 3 of being good. where being good is eating clean - that is paleo. i’ve definitely been eating more mindlessly than i should, but that’s okay - it’s all been paleo and it’s been under control.

i’ve successfully stayed out of the chocolate chips.

granted, today isn’t done and i’m heading out for dinner and overnighting at the boy’s house where there’s lots of yummy unhealthy stuff so i’ll pack some stuff to munch on in the case i should get snacky.

scale this am was at 131.2. so still up up up, but on the way down down down.

woooh!

it’s funny how once i get a day or two under my belt eating well doesn’t seem so hard - it’s like i get into this sugar hazed state where i just want to eat everything and until i detox for 24 hours i can’t get beyond that!

as a belated birthday gift my friend took me to share her session with our personal trainer (i used to train with her in the pre-crossfit days anyway). i ran the 10 minutes there, trained for an hour (still broke a GREAT sweat and found it challenging despite my crossfitting!) and then walked to a healthy place for dinner.

despite the tempting cheese and fried stuff and tofu (yes, i find it tempting) i stayed 100% paleo.

hurray for detoxing from weekend badness.

then i ran 15 minutes home.

so tired. but must make chicken for tomorrow’s lunch.

contimplating taking an off day from crossfit tmr but probably won’t. it’s easier to keep waking up at 6:15 than to take a break from it.

Last night was both good and bad.

Good:

• Family dinner at an italian restaurant with cousins and aunts and uncles
• Lots of pasta and cheese around, I had NONE of it even though tastes and extras were being offered all round
• Opted out of a glass of wine and didn’t touch the bread
• Got compliments on how good I’m looking - PEOPLE CAN SEE A DIFFERENCE!

Bad:

• Went to play Settlers of Catan at friends - had a glass and a half of wine
• Had a LOT of popcorn and a few pieces of chocolate.
• I lost control on the popcorn. I couldn’t stop. I was so far from hungry but kept eating more and more. Exactly what I want to avoid. But at least it was losing control on popcorn and not hte other items that will be at the parties tonight

SUPER AWESOME: Won both games of Settlers!

the manager i’m working with saved me half his nanaimo bar

i told him not to. it’s just sitting there.

but no, i’m not going to eat it!

At crossfit we all have to start with a “bootcamp” to teach us technique and get us started before we graduate to the normal classes I do now.

This round of bootcamp was finishing today and after they did their last workout the trainer was like “Hey J - how much have you lost since going Paleo?” and used me as an example of what changing your diet and doing Crossfit can be.

Haha yeah!

6# in 6 weeks ain’t too shabby. And I am getting visibly more toned. And the belly is shrinking

The scale today - 128.8

I’d like to see 127.x next week, which means staying in control at tomorrow’s stagette and christmas party. i can have fun without drinking, so why waste the calories? would rather stay in control and continue to feel good about how far i’ve come and make progress. i do plan to have the pizza they’re serving tomorrow night - but not to pig out like i’ve never seen food before.

and i’ll crossfit both days of the weekend, and do a crossfit endurance workout one of the days as well.

got some things done today - snow tires, and watched the biggest loser at the ‘rents house (they have a PVR. I don’t have cable).

i can’t believe i made it from tuesday to thursday without finding out anything! yay for no spoilers.

anyway, did a good job staying out of the food there. there’s a lot of bad for me stuff, and not bad but not necessary stuff either (diet fudgesicles and the like) that I tend to chow down on.

but i ate a good dinner (salad and chicken kebab from a Mediterranean place nearby) and was not hugry. so every time i thought about going for something in the kitchen i reminded myself how full i was and how i could be in control of my eating.

and i didn’t snack! yay! it feels great to be in control!

In crossfit there are a bunch of workouts called the Girls. They all scare me.

This morning it was time for Nancy:

5 rounds for time

• 400 meter run
• Overhead squat 95 lbs x 15 50# x 15 (That’s level 2 for girls)

I was the fastest girl in my class! Finished in 20:51! Yay! AND I did Level 2 which makes me badass again (I wanted to do 35# which is L1, but thought I should try the L2 and DID IT!)

I now want to die. Keep coughing. I think I need a few hits off of my inhaler.

Also, my headache from last night (that I tried to enhance with wine) is no longer. But I still emailed work that I’m not feeling well and am going to be at home today. I think it’s time to shower and nap :)

All the crossfit workouts can be done at different levels. Since I’m still pretty new I normally work at Level 1 which is the lightest weight or lest amount of reps.

This morning I asked the trainer if I should do level 1 (35#) or level 2 (50#).

His answer: Depends how badass you want to be.

(Note: I was expecting a “gosh, you can barely handle 35#, what are you thinking??”)

So I did level 2. My shoulders are sore, but my level 2 ass is BAD!

I had a super productive day and finished something I wasn’t expecting to at about 3:30. Since I got to my desk at 7:45, and took only 30 minutes for lunch I felt fine about leaving  the office at 4!

I didn’t think I could make it all the way to the crossfit gym for the 4:30 class, and spent the drive home thinking about what to do in the condo gym (and whether I could justify taking a nap instead of working out - hehe).

As I was about to get off the hwy to go home I decided that I would go to the gym after all. I made it there by about 4:35, and changed and got to do the workout that I missed this morning! It felt great!

And to think I nearly ended up napping on the couch!!

Now, as luck would have it I have an RMT appointment at 7PM! It’s like a reward! I am such a lucky girl!

went into the cupboard looking for PAM and found a whole shelf of junk food at the boy’s place. including three unopened bags of chips and a number of gummy variations.

(aside: it’s funny how he can have that stuff around and enjoy in moderation and i could never have a shelf like that in my place. even if i was able to resist for a few days or weeks, there would come a time where i’d binge and eat everything that’s there.)

and i must admit, part of me wants to start scarfing things down.

but i’m not gonna.

i just keep repeating the mantra in my head.

“nothing tastes better than slim. nothing tastes better than slim…”

besides, i would rather take my “non-paleo” cheat meal and use it on something delicious - like a dinner in little italy or something else that i’ll enjoy far more than a few chips…